Wednesday, January 7, 2009

sighs*Resolutions?

we all know most of us don't really follow the ever so popular "newyearsresolutions"
but hmm.. got me thinking; should that render us from trying anyways?
hehehe; humans have the power to adapt --
why shouldn't we take advantage of that?
/i told myself i wouldn't bother trying;
since there's really nothing "wrong" with me.
ahaha what a lie ;]


#1
" Be more thankful "

from time to time;
i can be thankful..
but very often..
you can see me take things for granted.
" i deserved this "
" it was all my hard work anyways.. "
" it wasn't my choice to give me this..
why should i say thanks? "
in case you didn't know..
now you do ^^;

#2
" Money Control "


sighs*
funny as it sounds.
i'm a jobless boi --
with not very wealthy parents.
and aweful control.(money wise)
i'm like starving animal.
show me money -- ill dive for it.
if i have some; wow it'll be gone before you know it.
+
recently my mum gave birth ^^;
10 months ago xD
soo she has been out of job --
for sumtime.
and yeee...
daddi + mummi working hard to find food for my greedy mouth
= me spending money on food outside + shirts..
sighs*
in 2 months time;
my mum will be out of the "EI" thing.
and 1/2 of the money allawance thing will disappear.
so we'll be in a fugly tight budget.
*wish me luck*

#3
" Food Galore Control "


from what i just wrote;
---^ up there(#2)
i mentioned me buying food right?
ahaha.
yee 3/4 of my money goes to suushi and other asian food xD
i love eating outside..
=_= spend about..
150$ + a month just on food 0_0
and my monthly alawance is 80 bux.
sighs*
btw sooshi is the only fish i eat 0_0


#4
" Weight Control "


crazy as it sounds.
im very unfit right now.
been eating so much junk since jan08-now.
ahaha soo.. im gunna try and control my junk problems byyyy:
no chips
no pop(softdrinks)
no chocolates(even tho i've got 5 boxes in my room cause of xmas presents..)
last years resolution was..
to do
100 situps/crunches
50 push ups
EACH NIGHT
but i only started doing it november..
and then stoped @ december..
ahahaha xD so it was 1/12 sucess xD
sighs* maybe that was too hard?
iunno.. but definately i'll excercise more and watch my food habits.

#5
" Care Less "

hmm..
i know its a bad thing when you said " i don't care "
but.. thats not the situation all the time.
-.- when people say shit about you..
i think the best thing to do is forget about it and just not care?
ahaha// yee i kept on telling myself that i would be a person who shouldn't let peoples fugly critiques change my personality and habits.
but i've realised..
that peoples comments..
have changed me quite a lot.
sighs*
i'd like to rant about the things that i do now..
that i said i'd never do last year..
but yee xD i'd rather tell you in msn or something ;]

#6
" Be More Positive "

hehehe; if you havent know..
im quite the pessimist xD
if you didnt know..
you should have!
lols; but atleast now you do ^^;
you can't unread what you read xD
often.. i spaz about what sux most.
when people show me things; all i say is the bad stuff.
^--- and sometimes even if i don't get asked for an oppinion--
i still say shit =_=
sighs*
well.. i don't think its that much of an aweful thing.
but people who don't know me won't understand me and brand me as a " bitch "
hehehe.. and that will scare em away.. and not befriend me.
sighs*
" A singer can raise a singer;
but a critique can raise a star. "
personal quote? hmm..
not everyone appreciates it xD
but hey.. the truth hurts?

#7
" Less Arrogant "

sighs *
aint there so much things wrong wif me?
ethics+virtue - wise?
hmm.. ever since i was small..
i've always thought of myself as..
the best? one of the top? of a higher kind?
sighs* i know its stupid..
but hey -- thats how my head ticked.
now i'm gonna try and detickify it.
sighs* most of the time i put people down and render em unable to do their best.
that's another thing that weakens my friendship wif my best buds.
" GAN-BA-REE! " lols goodluck in jap xD atleast how it sounds ;]

#8
" More Sleep "

i treasure my body xD
hehehe; lately for the past year.
i've been sleeping less and less?
damaging my own grown spurt..
im 15 and still 5"5 GHUUUUUUUR!
sighs*
i drink a lotta milk.. it's like water to me =P
but yee xD it don't work if i dont sleep ><
gotta stop thinking about what will happen..
and just live for the "now"

#9
" Academic Performance "

ahaha xD lols wtf =P
the ever so famous " im gonna try harder with school this year! "
i know not everyone excells..
but hey.. give it a try anyways?
i need that scholarship so i dont have to depend on my parents everytime i need something.
if my education is provided by the governement..
hey thats like 20 K off xD
like a super huge coupon ^^
well i think its 20K... or something like that xD
but i know its a lot off my parents heads.
and a lot off my own head =_=
sooo.. " BONNNZZAAI! " -- best of luck[jap again?]

#10
" Music Revival "

hmmhmm..
i started this before new years ^^; like december xD
ahah but yee.. i'm gonna try harder with my piano + guitar + signing.
i luv music a lot xD
ever since i waz small.
but for 2008 -- i found myself getting distracted by " fitting in "
following the stupid crowd..
and stuff like dat xD
" omg thats gay don't do that "
lol lets ignore all that shall we?
continue on; keep playing!
ROCK ON!!
errr.. rock on?
ahaha xD
di ako rakista! ;]
but anyways.. you get the point?

2009! here we come! errr.. i mean here we are!
i wonder whos reading this..
hehehre who-ever-you-are// i hope you know..
that.. i...
finish the sentence xD
you know what i was gonna say... hehehehe <3




Monday, January 5, 2009

01.05.2009.2

HMMM ;(
like a rope wrapped around my neck
my curiosity-- i've found.
iz something i need to keep in check.
for something i''ve yet to hear.
waiting for the time;
i wonder when, is it near?
dayum im so worried.
my mood;so confused.
yearning to comfort you.
wanting to be with you;
*sighs*
i told you i wanted to hear;
but you said wait..
i said yes.. but now im starting to tear.







01.05.2009

My curiosity..
is starting to bother me
<3